I'm alive, happy?! it's already may 🦩📓

I'm missed by only myself, I miss writing here after a hell day at night and ofcourse I've a lot to write this time but I lack time

whom to speak, just roadside strangers who are rich they'll think you're mad as you're just talking without knowing, all life a lot of things just keeping upto own , with whom to share, just in twenties still I'm thinking like I've a full life , I'm just full pain still not dead so accustomed to stay happy in front like all smile , strangers also belong to a group, like minded strangers, they'll not avoid so I find like me , just as always I always find motherly humans so alone all localities I just start to talk and gossip like own girl at the end I'll be in their lap sleeping dreaming of cows grazing in days

I've become totally mad though a good week just gone , first day ekadashi then two days family no just relatives ceremony, no longer I'm mistaking relatives like family just enough then chaturdashi then probably Buddha purnima yes Lord Buddha's day then what I can't remember much but I do learn a lot from everything of this just except what : minus their discussion of land, money, property in a holy ceremony, they just forget why they've just gathered and start to talk like , I feel just stranger among all blood biological relatives and go walking sit wherever I wish as they say I'm antisocial well I can't socialize with them , I'm not able to yet, just sit , eat bhojis and left , sitting innocent there where no-one can reach , just work to neutralize their burdens of me then a lot of rasagulla, sweets are what only the sweetest things that I had and

 I can remember

prior to some days I heard a sadistic news of a pious oldly so simple saint like person leaving earth and I felt still sad about this particular incident that this person didn't even get bit water and basil during last breath ಥ_ಥ I've always seen in the temple of Goddess so it's just heart breaking to know that such a sweet person was never cared by own family

May Lord grant eternal peace, perpetuity, prayers.·´`·.

If I ask about my study then it's great negatively and I've not found any time to record it in blog just casually studying with time , I had no idea, just part works need this much time, now glories to it I'm just feeling so tired to concentrate on books still no give up

again just works , going , coming places well I had jackfruit dal curry last night and raw banana dal the former to former days still this struggling health tell me raii , what will you eat except rice dal sabji•́ ‿ ,•̀

and I forgot not even one year to the last cycle and another cyclone has already hit my state just recently and do we Odias now care about cyclone, we're now so immune to it, and just rains , lighting previous two days also chandan yatra is happening so a lot of good things together what to say there are a lot of things just long unending list I love about being born in Odisha I'll do write,proud of only this⑅

then well a little short time planner fr last days of this month of may

25.theory done

26.questions all

27.bio'44

28.phy

29.phy

30.remains