no more delay, my Lord! I'll start today!

so as you can know now it's another name, a new start as I missed; may be I can say it's the end of the past event that rooted the new beginning of today. Installed again the day before still can't write and today one month the second month of this year is going to end, yet I'm stuck in life without any improvement that does not mean I'll not improve ಥ‿ಥ yes I'm crying and consoling myself so today I'll take one step further to my goal: emptying the bucket of pain and unsatisfactions slightly, so I'm wishing to write my heart out about two things:::::

(๑´•.̫ • `๑) So today the election results of our locality got announced and as I said somewhere earlier here in local it doesn't matter which party, it's about the person, here we have 'sarpanch' and a good party can have the worst candidate who'll do only beer and bloodshed. This time It's already I've reached the age to vote but I can't get the card actually I don't know or neither of us knew what's the process now so I could not do okay next time for sure\ but isn't it a thing that when a party you support in mind win you become happy, nowadays children in school are so much indulged in politics and here me who didn't even know the name of sarpanch , actually I had no idea that they change so I only remembered one name and when after they the teachers ask I said the one I knew and all laughed saying are not you seeing anything what's happening around you 

are you even coming out of your home\ so okay I really have no favourism towards anyone here as things will stay nearly same I think , am I going to affected, yes a lot of crackers no big big sounda, mics outside and a lot of chaos, bit of antisocial activities, unstable envt outside and I hope the situation will be stable as the result all the process is now over and the good party won : they create relatively less chaos and only celebrate things)

(ʘ言ʘ╬) it has been months I think yes incident of few months back. Work was going on at our home and we don't use onion garlic but others they can't like our curries; it's their saying though! So I went to buy some food with onion garlic as tiffins for them , I took a huge pulthin so that I can bring without getting the smell ; it's unbearable to me and went to a known village dhaba like place with my cycle , I hardly go though only when it's required. By these days the shop has upgraded a lot and there are people like two to three except the owner. So one person was in packing and delivering duty probably and the owner was busy inside and I was getting late so I just asked what I wanted and told to pack and place in pulthin politely and there were other customers eating sitting under the tree covering the whole area: , generally in villages you can see like this there clay chulis , Banana and Sal leaves and it's really really nice, so coming to the main topic: now I've focused more on the description of the place than the incident, so the incident is there were no girls it was only me and all male inside and outside so I was feeling bit hesitant to go inside, so I just requested to pack and handover me from inside like you can spread your hand and I'll bent and struggle bit reach and take , actually the person can come out a bit and give but there were others and must have a lot of works so I just said : I only speak in my mother tongue: which hardly anyone here will understand so it's like you hand over from there and I'll and guess what the person handed over like hands touching and I feel violated so just shaken and all fell on ground, so the person was telling me repeatedly to come inside and take which I'll never so I checked and all the foods were not correctly placed, I can't name the foods in English, so just like food a is there but I asked for food b, food c in five numbers but I asked for three like this so the person said still rudely like I made mistakes you come inside and pack yourself, so I again requested to please pack as I'm saying so the person get busy in packing others so I waited after nearly thirty minutes of standing there finally the person started to pack and this time when I spread my hand for my things the person just knowingly made all of those fell on floor, still I myself put those inside my big pulthin, yes I had to touch and that's okay with the circumstances then I handed over money but the person didn't return the rest Money, I was asking but no the person was not listening or acting like not able to listen finally the person threw the money outside and I gathered up and left with my cycle just speedily, actually I'm unable to explain the whole situation in words here and such a bad experience then whole day work, I don't really go for food outside as I don't need or I dont eat you can say but when it's necessary I only go and such an experience that day and I really can't share anything, say anything to anyone if I do so they'll point their fingers against me fir no reason, so should I go inside no not possible these incidents are breaking my strength but no I'll let myself break, if the person can touch me wrong way when I'm outside it's bright outside should I dare to go inside, I think we girls have a special power to sense the environment

I'm writing a lot but I can't explain the incident well

The person was new probably didn't know how to behave with public, actually there is nothing to learn

 people are touching in bad way and that's what they're at workplace or at their home they're criminals in disguise and this is happening in shops stores all where and it'll continue to happen so be aware of bad touchese, don't let them their sick mind rule you and we'll for sure win and grow in our life  I've many incidents in these years of life where I was tried to be touched in appropriately to be humiliated, to be violated,, the things the faces the places all these are still giving me chill and a lot but sometimes we just can't hope that something like this can happen at a place seems so normal okay type still the people with sick mind are polluting and we've to protect ourselves.May the Lord grant us strength 🙇‍♀️ & it's the first time I'm writing here, an exciting journey of me beyond my goal, at my goal and after my goal. I'm grateful that I wrote today, are all of us get a chance to speak!? I'm happy that I'm able to describe my pain in my extent and make a change in my strength, life urs it's a start Is it a good start!? such bad experiences I'm trying to explain🦁 not able to but I'm sure it's a safe start Ꮚ˘ ꈊ ˘ Ꮚ